Good Morning, Good People! I trust we've all made it through the week alive and relatively sane and intact? Though I know that "sane" is a relative term for many of you folks.
I have to make this somewhat quick as I'm up against it timewise. The Verizon Fios guy was out here to install our new stuff this morning. Good timing since my Charter modem took a dump last night and internet connection pretty much went the way of the DoDo. Charter sucks. The Verizon guy just got everything all hooked up and we're back live so keep your fingers crossed that it's a better service and the technofail issues are a thing of the past!
Obviously, I'm still struggling to find my balance. I haven't posted or been around to comment much all week. I'm still way off-kilter and can't find that balance. There's been highs and lows this past week and I'm just... off. It's not a lot of fun, it's driving me batty and I really need to pull myself out of this pile of garbage. I have to accept that there are things I cannot change no matter how bad I want them to. I have to find a way around some of the heaping piles of mental dogcrap rather than plopping down and sitting in it. I have choices to make but I'm having a hard time pulling the trigger on them. That needs to change. It needs to change like now because it's spilling over into other areas of my world and I don't like that in the least. Such as my writing... I've been pouring out some words here and there but it's total garbage, pure drek and I'm on the verge of scrapping it all and starting fresh. Maybe it would be good to start with a clean slate. I'm just not pleased with my work. So if for no other reason, I need to clear out the mental attic, sweep out the dirt, grime and cobwebs and open some damn windows to let some fresh air in. My work keeps me grounded and helps keep me sane. That space in my heart and in my head where the love and passion for my work resides is a sacred space and I need to treat it as such.
In short, it's past time I stop freaking wallowing and find my [expletive deleted] balance again. Nobody can do that for me but me. So I serve notice upon myself that I am going to kick my own ass until balance and order are restored. Got that, self? Let's just hope the self doesn't hit back too hard!
Anyway... enough of my whinging. There is a lot of bad juju floating around for a lot of people lately. I dunno. There's something in the air that is making The Suck multiply like f'ing rabbits. Lots of people I know and love are mired in their own gunk. And that bums me out to no end. So I guess I just wanted to say to make sure your friends and loved ones know that you're there, that you care, love and support them. Give them a hug to remind them that no matter what they're going through, that you're there by their side and love them with all of your heart. Because to me, that's sort of what it feels like... a lot of people lost and feeling alone out there in the woods that need to be reminded that we love and cherish them. And that together, we'll all get through whatever it is that we need to get through. So I say just take a minute to make those people important to us who are going through a crapstorm feel a little extra special.
So there's that.
Anyway... it's time for me to go fetch my laundry and get my show on the road. So I will leave it all to you folks. How has your week been, my friends? How has the Universe been treating you? Have there been nothing but highs? Nothing but lows? Nothing but something in between? Has the world about you been kind? Unfeeling? What is the good, the bad and the ugly in your worlds, my friends?
This here is your playground. You all know how it works... anything and everything is welcome here, my friends. Need to rant and vent? Need to spread a little love? Need to get something off your chest? Have some news that you need to share? This is the place to do it. So step on up, grab the microphone and belt it out. The spotlight is yours.
As always, the Purge Bucket is open for your convenience... spew forth, my friends!